Manner Unbecoming of a Sheriff's Deputy

So in chem we're learing about equilibrium. Definition? "A condition in which all acting influences are canceled by others, resulting in a stable, balanced, or unchanging system". That's what's happening to me right now, but on a different scale. Whenever my relationship with one person goes up significantly, my relationships with other people go down to counteract it. And that's pretty much my only reason for my swell in hateful thoughts recently. Not just 'I hate you because of your personality' kind of thing. I hate you because of your smile, the way you walk, the way you talk, the way you act, the way your FRIENDS act. It's just been hard to control recently. I don't want to go into examples, but one person in particular has filled me with such RAGE, I just want to rip my hair out and dance upon somebody's eyeballs. WHAT ABOUT FUCKING BOB, HUH!?