Lord Darlington

Whenever i yawn, i feel like crying. Like i'm halfway there, why not just go whole hog on it. I wonder if it does any good? Is it somehow better than just being stuck in my room doing hw? What does the hw matter? I know what i'm going to do in my life. And besides, if you have friends, who cares? But what if i dont have friends. Sophomore year it seemed that i had too many friends to handle. Now i feel that everybody has left. And they have. They've left, graduated, moved, recieved geds, drifted away, broken off communication, or revealed their true selves. I only have a select few, and they feel like they're fading again. They wont be here forever, but while they are, it would be nice to have them stay in focus. I dont know how i'll handle graduation day. I'll be okay before and afterwards. But it's too much of a risk. What if i wake up and all my friends are gone? Gone to college, gone back to school, gone to other states, other countries, other planets for all i care. They'll be gone and i'll be right here. Alone.