rarara

i can't write 'fuck' big enough to express my anger


later:

sometimes i think that god or karma takes away all the little things from me so that i can have the big things in life. example, my parents can pay for my education but i never get a higher roll in risk, i tend to spit when im excited, and i never win anything that involves luck. i'm not sure if i would like to trade this in. a "normal" life with nothing but little losses is just mediocre. a "disadvantaged" (what else could i say instead of this? "not awesome"?) always has its ups and downs and thats what makes it great.

i think i summed it up beautifully when i told natalie that my life has no plot.

shut up and get to studying, novak