MAKE LOVE TO the children

I keep almost falling asleep and it's really nice, except i can't stay that way. I always have to get up and brush my teeth or drive home or something. I just want to sleep and i want my dad to stop being such a dick and i want to stay happy forever. But i guess that will never happen. Because Isaac Hayes is a big pussy. Stan, Kyle, Cartman, Kenny. They loved Chef. And look what happened! He fucking died. Hard. At the funeral they said 'we loved Chef, but in the last week, he let a fruity club brainwash him and now he is no more' Fuck you Isaac Hayes. That's what you fucking get for being such a Scientologist Pussy.

Umbilical

goodness i feel like a loser. there are only 3 things that make me happy. and college isnt one of them yet. stupid.

Don't Tell My Heart, My Achey Breaky Heart

Best. Weekend. Ever. Even considering the down part. After doing a premeet, I went to company and that's turning out to be really cool. Then I went to Smile and it wasn't half bad. Even with Nick Lao's fucking bitchass girlfriend. Afterwards, Tommy, Johanna, and I went on a mission and I barely passed. Then I went home and slept. I woke up the next day and drove with Cynthia to Piedmont Distance Festival. It was awesome. I wore Jin's magic shoes and i kicked so much ass. 19th heat out of 24 for the mile and i got 4th place with a time of 4:49.5. I think i ran so fast that I actually burned a hole in my foot. Damn. After my race i went to Oakland Chinatown with Fi and got lunch. 2 hours later i ran the 800 on a full stomach and i hella could have won, but i didnt fight hard enough for my position on 3 separate occasions. If i had i totally coulda snatched like 4 people. But i'll get it next time. 2:08 or something. Awesome. Then after a little a little rough spot, yoongi, cynth and i went back to sf. I was kinda happyhigh in the car but i got cynth home and then yoongi and i went to chelsea's party. It was fucking awesome. We had so much fun and we had a little to drink and i got to try out my new Jack Daniels flask and we played fun games and traded dirty secrets and told GREAT jokes and we went to bed at 4 int he morning and got up and then swam and then we got a cheap innout breakfast instead of a 12 dollar breakfast at dennys and then i went with yoongi and we went to the marina and then to work and yoongi actuallyhungoutwithmeatworkforthewholefourhoursandweplayedaroundwiththecoolmasksanditwasreallycoolandnowimhomeanditookanicerelaxingbathandicanactuallywalknowandifeelreallygoodandnowimalmostdonewiththisgodddamnpostokaydoneweekendyesiwishitneverended.


That's two rejection letters. It hurts. But really just one. I'm going to appeal for SB. I want to go there. I'll talk to Spellicy about the appeal. Damn it. Oh well. Assuming nothing changes, it's going to be between SDSU and UCD. Damn.

Peanut Pain

First rejection. Oh it hurts. Badly.

Big Deal, We Blew Up Two of Your COUNTRIES

It's what I'm reading. It's pretty damn good. It's fun, really. Especially cos he's fucking everybody in sight. And it's the most dirty sex ever. But it's also kind of sad cos he's always hungry and everybody is so poor. Cos it's set in Havana 1994. But the good outweighs the bad.



Man I keep forgetting that Lent doesn't include Sundays because those are already days of Celebration. So Lent is like a week longer. Crap this will be hard.



It's howling outside. Wind howl and hopefully not neighbors howl on St. Patty's.

The Geek's Got the Girl

It's interesting to know who got into what college, just so you can keep stats on everybody, but really, I'm really only happy for a few people. Don't get me wrong. I like you guys alot, it's just that I don't care. Right here and right now i'll tell you who I am actually happy for in their successes at getting into college.


Levi - Got into fucking Brown. Since he missed partying for most of Lowell, he deserves SexPowerGod. Plus I want a place to stay when I visit for PSG.

Dayu - He already got into GTech and UCLA, but i'm hoping that he gets into MIT. I know Eugene Kurr didn't, but just being a genius doesn't cut it. I think Dayu's got the extras to do it. That's his payback for being smart, athletic, involved, and dedicated.

Phil Yee - SLO! Phil is one of the best people I know. Not only is he incredibly nice, but he's got a multidementional sense of humor, too. Too many people lack a sense of humor, and luckily for Phil, he's not one of those people. He deserves it because he'll actually be an improvement to college life for a few lucky people.

Fiona - Got into Syracuse. Fiona is very knowledgable. She keeps up with her grades, sure, but she ALWAYS knows what's going on with everything. What to do, how to do it, who's doing it, why to do it. She's on top of it all. She deserves Syracuse because it's her reward for always knowing which way the wind was blowing.

Pointy-Booted Beaner

Today was a really good day. Everything was real chill. Even the ride home. But it seemed my mood put me into an elevated state of being. Not only was i much, much happier today, but i felt faster than everything else. Let me explain.

In summer school in 8th grade, i read books during math class cos i knew everything already. And i was reading this book with scifi shortstories. There was this one where this inventor makes a potion to make his atoms as well as his consciouness speed up to superhuman speeds. So he told his friend to drop the glass he was holding, and reluctantly the guy did. He was amazed to see that it was hanging in the air. With a second glance, he realized that the glass was falling very slowly. He was moving so fast that the cup seemed to be frozen in the air. They went outside to hear the band play, but it was moving so slowly (and, consequently, the sound of the band) that the music sounded like rattling. He started to run, but he was moving so fast that his pants started to catch on fire. That wasn't too much of a problem because the fire was moving too slowly to do any harm. After a couple minutes, everything gradually got faster and he reentered the normal speed of reality. that might have been a little confusing, im not sure.

So another explanation. One day, my friends in middle school came over and we played starwars podracer for like half an hour. podracers go like 1000 mph so it was a very fast paced game. we were waiting for misha's mom to pick him up so we decided to pop in mario kart while we were waiting. now mario kart may be another racing game, but the gameplay is much, much slower. it was like the gokarts were crawling. thats kinda what happened to me today.

I felt like everything around me was moving at an extremely slow pace. Cars were going at my walking speed. People were mumbling like were about to fall asleep. Even Jin seemed to run at normal-human speeds. It was a life-high. I think it was the Tikka Masalla. I really, really love this. Life.

When The Dogs Begin To Smell Her

So it kinda sucks. Because even though i have only a little hw, i'm not getting math at all. And even if it is only a little bit of hw, i have so many activities that im gonna fucking drown in dedication. It's like last semester, only the stakes are higher and i have work. Like, instead of deciding on missing out on crappy XC with prutz and the play which i had a small part in, i have to choose between fun track which im doing better at and company which i'll have a bigger part in, hopefully. I want to do both but the thing is that i'd have rehearsal 3 times a week including weds, fris, and sats. Now if you have a track schedule handy, you'll see that ALL of our good meets are on saturday. That would mean missing all the good meets, missing all the saturday rehearsals or compromising. So this sucks royally. Like really really really really. I really want to act cos i dont suck at it. I think if i had natural talent for running like Walker or Logan i'd choose track in a heartbeat, but i dont. I just stick with it because it's stuck with me. Friends and hard work. But if i started out with drama freshman year, i'd be hella different, and probably fatter. Today was so awesome at rehearsal, i want that more often. But i still want that mile win and the 4x400 win rush. Damn it i hate this so much. I guess i'll just get fucked, oh well.

Speaking of jizzing, lent is here and i'm miserable. 40 fucking days.

Big Titties

I'm just ripe with posting today, aren't I? Anna had this really cool idea and i wont tell you untill tomorrow because it's awesome, but i think i'll extend it. I'll make it cool for everyone! Kinda fruity but oh well.

I fucking hate math. Esp with this new physics shit. First of all, i'm not going to become an engineer, i can hardly spell it. I will not ever need to figure out the volume of my morning donut. I will not ever need to calculate the force i need to exert while pulling up an 800lb bucket of coal. I WILL NOT EVER FUCKING NEED TO CALCULATE THE OPTIMAL AREA OF PASTURE FOR MY 4 COWS TO GRAZE IN! Secondly, what's with the physics shit. I thought this was math? I feel so disadvantaged cos i dont know what any of the crap is? gravity, newtons, juouuououles. Yea sure basic concepts, but then people are like W = F x P and the sljgsldgsdgFSLDKG! Please, i'm not even angry anymore. I'm just scared. I promise, i'll even sign a waiver saying that i will never ever use anything above 10th grade math ever again just please god dont make me take math.

I have a happy surprise for April. This weeks onion made it even better. I really do love this stuff. I gotta get involved.


Finally, I realized in the hall that the guy was right when he said, "You can lose friends, but enemies accumulate." How true, how true. I met like 3 people in the halls who i would consider 'enemies'. It was never like that. It was people i liked, people i didn't like, and people i didn't know. Now there's a handful of people who i consider bad news in my school. I wonder how long before theres enough of them that they rise up against me and kill me. 1 year? 5 years? 50 years? Maybe i'll kill them first.

Can't Fight Against the Youth

really now. i dislike it when people like rosanna talk about their relationships. because they're not real. She's had like 7 boyfriends, all college fobs since she was in freshman year (really now, college bf's taking advantage of an hs freshman. thats low) and for each one of her relationships lasted like 2 months tops. Now that she's finally broken that record with her current college bf (who's 21 by the way. rosanna cant be much more than 18) she has to post in her xanga about 'all the ups and downs' of their relationship. it's been two freaking months. how many ups AND downs could there be? and the last sentence of that post, something along the lines of "Although you know how I hate conflicts and having to deal with them, you help me become stronger because it's you who help me through them." That has got to be the worst case of circular reasoning that i have seen in a while. To top it all off, at the end of the post, she says she loves him. It took me 4 months, then yoongi breaking up with me for 6, then going out again for like 7 months before i said that. She just cheapened herself. My advice for the guy: "Keep going! You scored big time with a girl who uses cliches which she doesn't know the meaning of and then says she loves you after two months! That means she's easy pickins! You are ready to take advantage of her, you sick freak!"



Also. Unlike some special cunts, don't get mad at andy because he's angrier this season. He's still really pissed off about last XC season and the fact that his own school turned against him AND eddy, and now he has some crazy catching up to do with the team and for the team. For one thing, he has to get to know all the freshmen in that coach way, meaning that he has to know their strengths, weaknesses, times, competition, etc. And now he comes back to a team, a different team, one with new people coming, old people leaving, and a bad team (let's face it, we suck) that he has to cram miles, speed, and power into. So lets not be cunts and rail on andy for being andy revistited. He's had to deal with more shit this past year than any fag like prutz (and normally i dont say fag unless it's phrased 'LOLFAG' like on explosm cos that's just messed up, but what prutz did really does make him the second most derogatorily labelled person in the world. fag) has had to put up with. Man, fuck prutz, fuck fags, and fuck cunts (literally and figuratively).

POOFTERS!

It's funny because it reminds me of so many people. One in particular. Thanks Conway, Daniel.


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