rarara

i can't write 'fuck' big enough to express my anger


later:

sometimes i think that god or karma takes away all the little things from me so that i can have the big things in life. example, my parents can pay for my education but i never get a higher roll in risk, i tend to spit when im excited, and i never win anything that involves luck. i'm not sure if i would like to trade this in. a "normal" life with nothing but little losses is just mediocre. a "disadvantaged" (what else could i say instead of this? "not awesome"?) always has its ups and downs and thats what makes it great.

i think i summed it up beautifully when i told natalie that my life has no plot.

shut up and get to studying, novak

Mississippi On Her Knees

Fuck this shit. Since today is already shitty, I'm going to go to bed and tempo run in the afternoon.

a hero Zero with a capital Z

Something about Job and Lindsay making funny chicken sounds is making me feel funny. It makes me feel motivated to do something I just dont know what. I feel really good when i think of their funky chickens. NMuch better than I feel now, cos i feel shitty. But taht's not being addressed here. I feel like i have to do something like write Morgan and Bridie their letters. But it's not even that. I almost feel compelled to go watch all 3 seasons of ArresteD. I wish I could fulfill this feeling. It seems to promise good feelings if i do what it tells me to. Actually, it smells of better times in years past. I didn't think that ArresteD had that big of an effect on me. It was funny, and i watched it with friends, and there was the amazing amount of inside jokes, but other than that... I dont know.

Hey Miss Murder

Oh. And Raven is ugly now. She used to be soooo hot.

I want to write a book about how mean I am. I think it will sell because i'm that much of a jerk.

Eye Mull Of Match Sheen

Speaking of Beckham, you know who's another contradiction? Spiderman. Well, the movie. Look at Toby Maguire. Weak, nerdy, ugly. Yes, i know that's why they picked him to play peter parker, but look at spiderman! I would love to look like spiderman. Hell. I'd do spiderman. Too bad guys. The people you play are cooler than you. Ehhhhh same for me.