Fingers Fumble Faintly In The Dark

These past two weeks I have had so much pent up rage and angst and emoness. But really, I just got out of bed and really need to hit the can, so most of it is gone. I'll start with the easy stuff and see if anything comes back.

On my vacationmabob, we were at Grover Hot Springs and I had just gotten the lifeguard angry at me, so i couldn't expect a sucessful rescue if i knocked my head on the bottom of the pool. Some old, fat guy had asked whether or not the hotspring in question was chlorinated, and the lifeguard replied "Yes, but with Bromine." Taking a page out of TK's book, I proceeded to tell the lifeguard (who's biceps were huge, but he had chicken legs), that a pool can not be chlorinated with bromine. The hotspring must be brominated instead. He told me that since they were in the same family of elements, it meant the same thing. Naturally, I thought it was stupid, but stupidly, I told him so. The lifeguard gave me a dirty look and remarked that he had way more training that i did and so his idea was not stupid. A glance at the faces around the pool said otherwise. I had won the battle for now, but that was assuming I didn't start drowning.

My attention drifted to the two little boys who reminded me of myself the last time i came here. They were engaging in a conversation that I could imagine having with a friend of mine, so many years ago.

"I, I've, I've been up a thousand feet!"

"I've been up fiftytwo eighty hundred feet."

"wow"

"See, see, see the top of that mountain there? That's fiftytwo eighty hundred feet!"

"I've been up threethousand feet"

"No way! That's almost to the moon! You can't have gone up that far!"

"Nuh-uh, fiftytwo eighty hundred feet is farther than the moon!"

"No, cos, cos my dad told me and he's a, and he's, and he's a geologist! He studies feet! Like how high we are in the air! He TOLD me!"

"Well, if he's a geolgist.. but i still went up threethousand feet."


I faded away there cos my dad started talking to me. He was a geologist. And I could read the signs. Grover Hot Springs: elevation 2000ft.

SUPAHSTAH!

I wrote most of this at work, so here it is.


I've been feeling like shit lately and it getsreally boring here, so I'm going to write it out a bit and see if any good will come from it. I'm at work right now and people keep coming in, so I'll try not to lose my train of thought between my spurts of writing.

{note: Some dick was waiting outside the shop for like 20 mins with a window wiper and a bucket of water. I asked him if I could help him and he said "nah, it's cool" and slammed the bucket on the ground, splashing water all over me and the windows. I didn't yell or cuss because I was talking with a potential buyer, but goddamn what is up with people?}

I've been very stressed out for the past 2 weeks. Seussical ahs been running for a bit and I'm only kinda proud of it. Nonetheless, I spend an average of 6 hours at fucking company. Seussical and the revue have stolen my summer and returned to me only some enjoyment. Only some because I hate alot of people. Isaac is the biggest fakefag I've ever seen. Touchytouchy guy who thinks he's the shit because he's a gay sophomore at sota who can kinda sing. I'm going to punch his face in. And Adam and Mac. The 8th grades who talk inceasantly and space out continually (respectively). I hate suburb kids. And maybe I'm just paranoid, but i think Annie dislikes me now. but I dont know why. The people who make company worthwhile thought, they are real gems. Brian, shauna, nick, kaitlin, katrina, dominic, max, andy mosttimes and, of course, yoongi. I dont know what I'd do without them.

And then there's work. With all the company i do, there's hardly any time for work at Neverland. I have to get Catherine and Helen to cover my shifts. Theyt're very beautiful people for helping me out, but it's so hard to make it up to them, hourswise. For the next couple days I'm going to have to start working any time I can to pay them back for their time. I already owe them something like 5 hours and I'm going to need about 12 more hours of coverage, what with all this compay and bristleconepines shit. once I find Robert I'm giving him my two weeks notice. It's been a nice run at Neverland. A great first job, but it's time to move on.

I want to start working full time for Jackson Personnel, or to the extent that one can work fulltime for a temp agency. That's another way company has hurt me. I've missed two great jobs that paid great for fun work. once all this silliness is over, I'm going to be rakin' in the dough while still being able to have fun. I'll have time to work, hangout and hopefully run.

I feel so disappointed at how fat and slow I've become. I've been keeping my weight down by cutting out breakfast, but it's not enough. I have no muscle and too much flub. Gotta look good when I go off to college so I can take off my shirt in that beautiful weather.

College. I'm really psyched. I'm really only unsure about Yoongi. Maybe if i were more of a man, I could make a decision about us either way. But weak, indecisive Mike feels like a jerk about this. I almost feel guilty because I'm going to college and that's silly. But still. I'll just have to work something out later...

In the meantime, I have a couple positive things to look forward to. like the fact that my ID is ready. And I have some money again. Not to mention my summer doesnt' end for another two months.

I gotta go find Robert and break the news. I wonder how he'll take it.... Shit this is going to be harder than I thought.




Now that I've closed up shop
I did it. I put in my two weeks notice. If you guys want stuff for cheap, tell me now. I also had a great night. I went...spelunking at lowell. Dude, like srsly.

now i gotta cash some checks, go to wilson's, pick up my id, and go to company.

Fuck You Jordan

Done, man. Cleaned my entire fucking room. If you've ever really seen my room, you know how much of an accomplishment that is. It took me a few days and about 10 hours, but I'm fucking done. My nose is sneezy because of all the dust. Maybe I'll vacuum later (when i say done i mean it looks clean until you look at the doghair and dust on the carpet). Christ. Now if i can leave it like that for two more months...

My cousins will be coming over in a couple days. They'll be staying for a week. These are the ones from Georgia. Aunt Marcy (who is my mom but older), Sissy (who i just noticed looks and acts alot like john candy), KK, and their friends Tia and thisothergirlidontknow. Everybody is at least 35 years old. Guess where they're staying. That's right. My room and the room adjacent. That means that I am displaced for an entire week. I'm not going to like this alot. It also means that I have to hide all my stuff. I'm going to have to get creative here..




No srsly I am freaking out my bird. It doesn't know what I'm saying or is confused as to why I'm saying it. I can't reproduce some of the noises perfectly, but i'm getting there. More later.

Bro Hymn

Are you ever hungry late at night, but realize you can't cook and/or you're too lazy to do anything buy eat out of the box/fridge/microwave? Have you ever looked in your freezer and thought to yourself, "Yea, I can eat 25 potstickers" but then figure out that it includes more than just throwing them on a pan? then you start to wonder if your midnight meal can consist of sourcream and nothing but sourcream.

basically, i'm hoping that my helplessness in the kitchen (minus 10 meals a week for the plan) will help me lose weight in college.


I think I can communicate with my bird. More on this later.

Get No Dizzy Spells

One of my neightbors died. The good one. Vince and Ilse have been our great neighbors since my mom was a little girl. I've know Vince all my life. Then I wake up today and my day goes "Guess who died?" He might not have known how to put it, but that was a bit harsh. But it's okay. They were good friends and my dad was hurt too. Vince Cannizarro was a great guy. He used to play tennis wiht his longtime wife Ilse. I remmember them sunbathing in the afternoon sun in their garage. Every chance they got. That's why they were so tan and why, lately, they'be been so pale.

I'll miss Vince. I didn't cry, but I'll miss him.